Thursday, December 8, 2011
I'm So Lonely
I am sitting here with my children's blood on my hands and I'm wondering why.
Why do I keep doing this? What am I accomplishing with this course of action? Why will he not just let this end? I wish this would end. I wish I would not be spared. I would give anything for oblivion.
I cannot keep doing this...but I cannot end it. For some reason, I put the gun down. I do not swallow the poison. I do not press down with the knife.
What is stopping me? Why do I continue this endless cycle of death? Of mercy killing and coveting a life I can never return to?
Why must I be so lonely?